My first essay after taking a break from writing since the end of English O'Level Paper 1. :)
Heaven a place where there is no suffering nor pain.Both mentally and physically drained, she sank right into her bed within seconds. Her bed seemed to be like a quick sand pulling her deeper and she was too exhausted to do anything about it, she just let it pull her down. She closes her eyes and begin to rest. She fell into a deep sleep soon after.
"Who are you?" she asked the beautiful lady who stood in front of her.
Standing right in front of her was a beautiful lady whose skin was as fair as the snow, whose beauty was just simply breathtaking. Her face was a familiar face which she knew so well but she just could not make it out who the lady was. The lady came closer to her, the closer the lady was to her, the harder it became for her to recognise the lady. Her mind was entangled with doubts, insecurities and faces that she came to know for the past how many years of her life. Deep in her heart, she knew the lady but she just could not make out just who she is.
"Its me, don't you recognise me dear? Or have you forgotten me already? Remember our promise?" the lady asked.
She asked herself quietly and tried again to remember and recognise the lady who is now standing just a few feet from her. The more she asked herself, the harder it was for her to get the answer she wanted. The harder she tried to remember and recognise the lady, the worse it became. Not only her mind is entangled with all sorts of doubts and insecurities, faces of the people whom she came to know begin to get all blurry and began to disappear slowly.
The beautiful and snow skinned lady handed her a photo of them together taken a few months back during their most recent meeting. She looked at the photo closely and carefully scrutinizing it to get some clues. The place looked very familiar, it was some place very close to her heart. She looked at the photo and she saw the smiles on their faces, the joy and happiness they had. She tried again but to no avail. The lady took her hand and squeezed it tightly. A sudden surge of warmth and happiness began to overwhelm her. The sudden surge was again familiar as if she had experience it before.
The lady looked at her and asked her the same question for the very last time, hoping to get the answer she wanted badly. Sadly, she did not receive the answer she wanted. She said her last few words to her and left.
"Be good." those two words kept ringing and playing in her head like a broken record and suddenly, it seemed that God sympathised her and a miracle happened. A sudden influx of memories of her and the beautiful lady started to flood her mind and kept playing, aiding her in remembering the lady. She realised who the lady was but it was all too late for she had walk away, no where in sight.
The girl woke up from her deep sleep instantaneously as if some unseen forces pulled her out from the dream realm. She sat on her bed mulling over the dream she just had and in her hands was the photograph of her and the beautiful lady, the same exact photograph the lady gave to her. Coincidence? Maybe. She looked at the photograph and only to have her dream became a reality. She still could not recognise who the lady who appeared in her dream was. She started searching for other photographs that they might have taken together all over her room and inside her computer files even. She was blessed that she named her photographs. She read the lady's name out loud and tried to get her face in her mind. She failed quite a lot of times before she succeeded. At the end of the day, she was exhausted more than ever and this time, she was emotionally exhausted too. Drained terribly, every tiny bit of energy drained out of her.
A few days after the incident, she received a call from the beautiful lady to meet her for coffee. She agreed to it readily without thinking much despite knowing that she might not be able to recognise her when the both of them meet later. She changed to a new set of clothes, fresh new clothes with the smell of the softener lingering. She arrived at the cafe on time with the photograph in her hands and the lady was already there waiting for her to come. She took a final look at the back of the photo which she wrote down their names the other day. She called out her name in her mind and this time, lady luck was on her side, the lady's face appeared and she knew she had regained back her memory even though it might just be small part but it was better than nothing.
She ran towards the lady as fast as she could and gave her a tight warm hug which the lady reciprocated back with what she remembered, her signature hug. It felt good, so good, she experienced another sudden surge of happiness running through her body. She looked at the lady with teary eyes and said,
" Oh my God! I am so happy I am able to remember and recognise you now! Do you know how scared I was when I totally lost all my memories of you and me and I could not even recognise you in our photographs we took together. I kept asking myself just who on earth are you and what is my relationship with you. I was so afraid that I would not be able to recognise and remember you when I saw you just now!"
Her voice began to crack and she was sniffling away moments later. She was overwhelmed with such mixed emotions that took over her. The lady wiped her tears which was flowing uncontrollably like a broken tap, pulled her close to her and pushed the girl's head on her shoulder and ran through her hair with her fingers, consoling and calming the girl down.
" I was so afraid that I will never ever be able to remember you! I was so afraid that you will leave me when I cannot remember you at all, not even one tiny bit of you! I was so afraid of losing you! I was very afraid, so afraid of all that." the girl continued with her muffling voice.
"You silly little girl! Even if you were to forget me, you should know that I will never forget you and I will never leave you. Never! Well of course if my memory starts to fail and I have totally forgotten about you then maybe I might. *giggles* But rest assured, I will never leave you. So have you been good lately?" the lady said to her with a smile.
They sat down together with their coffees on the table, talking away, updating each other on their lives. They were having so much fun together talking about a lot of things, sharing their stories at the same time reminisced the good old days, happy memories that they had created in their friendship that knows no age nor status differences. Their giggles and laughters filled the whole cafe. You can definitely sense their happiness and joy when you pass their table. The girl could be seen smiling away from ear to ear and the beautiful lady on the other hand was enjoying all the free time she had on her hands and the company of her little girl. They must have felt like they were in heaven for heaven is a place where there is no suffering nor there is pain. Her suffering of trying to regain back her memories were over ; the pain she had to endure during the process of regaining back her memories plus the fear which she had to live with vanished into the thin air, long forgotten perhaps.
